Demi Lovato Struggled With ‘a Lot of Survivor’s Guilt’ Following Mac Miller’s Death

In a new interview with Zane Lowe, Demi Lovato who recently updated her pronouns to she/her, spoke about a song on her forthcoming album Holy Fvck (out Friday, Aug. 19, via Island Records) titled “Dead Friends,” and how it was written in the emotional fallout she dealt with watching friends and colleagues such as Mac Miller die via drug overdose while she survived

“I had a lot of survivor’s guilt after my overdose because … right after that, Mac Miller died, and it just put everything into perspective for me of, ‘That could have been you, that almost was you, and how are you going to live your life now?’ And it affected me a lot,” the singer said.

Lovato overdosed on heroin, which she now believes was laced with fentanyl, after six years of sobriety. Just two months before Miller’s death in 2018, she suffered three strokes, vision loss, organ failure, and a heart attack, but was still alive, and able to recover. Miller died on Sept. 7th from an accidental overdose of fentanyl, cocaine, and alcohol, leaving Lovato to deal with the aftermath of surviving what the people around her didn’t. In her interview, she describes the pain of losing a friend in this way.

“I’ve made friends of all ages. I’ve lost friends that were around my age, and those hurt so deeply because we’ve been in the trenches together,” she said. This is what “Dead Friends” is all about, but fans will have to wait to listen until “Hoy Fvck” releases in its entirety. According to Lovato, who recently mourned the end of her pop era, the album will be well worth the wait. “The process of making this album has been the most fulfilling yet,” she said in a press release. “Never have I been more sure of myself and my music, and this record speaks that for itself.”

Elsewhere in the new interview, Lovato also tells Lowe that she would advise artists under the age of 18 to consider not signing record deals with major labels. “In your teens, people who aren’t in the spotlight are still trying to figure themselves out. They’re going to parties. They’re making mistakes,”  she explains. “And it’s like, if you’re a 15-year-old and you’re making mistakes, it’s magnified. I don’t know. If I were to have kids and they came to me and said, ‘Mom, I want to be in the industry,’ I would have to say, ‘Please wait until you’re 18.’”

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *